I feel terrible. I have neglected this blog for far too long. And not for lack of anything to say, mind you, but rather for lack of time or concentration. You know how after not seeing a friend for an extended period of time the mere thought of having to catch them up on all the current events is too daunting so you continue to avoid contact? Well that's how I felt. Rather than simply say, "I'm fine, thanks. How are you?" and leave it at that, I wanted to be able to spend some serious time explicating my life over the last five-ish months.
I don't have that time right now, actually. I am currently in the middle of furiously writing a paper for my gender communication class that is due tomorrow... it wasn't written in my planner, therefore it did not exist in my mind... until the day before it's due. Ugh.
This does provide a pretty accurate picture of my life at this particular junction. I am a student, employee, director, wedding planner, family member, fiance, and friend all at the same time. There is not enough room in ten people's heads, let alone mine by itself, to accommodate all that needs to be processed mentally. However futile, I am trying.
Luckily, I see light at the end of this tunnel.
November 1st: I stop wedding planning and start enjoying my marriage.
December 15th-ish: I am finished being a student, for the time being and can enjoy a few weeks off. This is also the time I will be taking my long awaited honeymoon.
May 5th-ish: My term as Director is done.
I don't know if visualizing deadlines/endpoints/etc. is necessarily an optimistic way to look at things but it certainly helps me get through the day. I also have an incredible support system, when I let them, that is there for me in all of the roles I attempt to fulfill each day.
Back to arguing for the legalization of same-sex marriage. I promise not to let so much time lapse before writing again.
xoxox
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